2023 Birthday Musings

It's a gift to be able to look back on my 2018 brain in Facebook memories.

I couldn't have imagined where I would be today, and how much has changed.

I was still deep in my grief. I thought grief would be quicker, but I'm okay that it wasn't. Sometimes when life doesn't hurt, we let it keep happening to us. That Pain was a reminder of the preciousness of my breath.

Now I'm actively cultivating the life I want.

2023 was the year of concussion.

I lost at least 2 months of my life, which was also an unlikely gift.

I was letting life happen again. 

I was forced to re-evaluate, rest, and reset. 

I was reminded that our dreams and thoughts are precious, and this can all go away in an instant.

  I traveled all over the US, as well as to London, Mexico, Abu Dhabi, and the Philippines.

I grew as a business owner and leader, reconnected with chosen family, and sold my beloved lights business to grow www.homeserviceva.com.

I was adopted by wise mentors, and continued to intentionally learn and grow every day.

In the moments that my brain needs a break, I  practice self-compassion.  I'm still learning to listen to my mind and my body.

2024 is going to be my year of VISIBILITY.

I've struggled with a need to be seen and heard, while dealing with shame related to that desire.

I’m releasing that shame.

I’m no longer waiting for someone else to acknowledge me,  to confirm that I know enough, I’m good enough, or that I’m smart enough.

-I’m enough-

I’m going to be focused and strategic.

I’m meant for bigger things, and I’m not going to let fear and internal shame guide my thoughts or decisions.

I’m not going to stand on the sidelines or wait for people to “see me”.

I’m a visionary leader and the world is going to know it!

In 2023,  I met, connected with, and collected more of "my people”.  I’m going to continue to be a connector and community builder.

I’m no longer going to invest my time in the takers of this world.

I’m going to intentionally cultivate relationships with fellow givers, and I’ll accept their gifts graciously, just as I offer my gifts with love and without expectations.

Most importantly, every day I will inch towards being the wife and mother I want to be, while forgiving myself for all the times that I'm not the best version of myself.

I’m going to dream bigger, write more, and sing more.

Maybe I’ll finally learn to dance?

We’ll see…